How would you feel in this situation?

broke up with girl twice, told her i was cheating and still engaged. then a week later told her i was lying about being engaged and everything and sent her flowers and contact me the next day if i still had a chance, which she did. then i took another girl to her resatuarant while she was working, she kinda hoverd around a bit then eventually got up and left work. then at 3 am she text me sayin im lame, i said shut up, she said if you wanted to see me you didnt have to drag a dirty skank with you. then for a week strait i would text her stuff like, you stupid ugly fat smelly etc, even told her i had an std. she said she will put a restraining order on me. then 3 hours later she txt sayin she dont like me with other girls. i was like ok sorry is it to damaged, she said yes, then i said let me fix things she said ok but she starting fresh with me and things arnt gonna be the same, asked if she sein someone else she said no. never calle her since. i wnat her, but als need independc